Who Do I Want to Be?

While reading an article on Oprah's Life Class website, I ran across a question that I felt should have been quite simple to answer (and it probably is for a lot of people); however, it is THE most difficult question for me to answer. "Who do you want to to be?"

First of all, the question itself is confusing. Who do I want to be...when? Who do I want to be...when I grow up? Who do I want to be...professionally? Who do I want to be...personally? Like, I do not know. It is so confusing. You are asking too much of me! I DON'T KNOW!!



For some people, that question has been answered for them since the day they were born. Well, not really, but you know what I mean. They have known for a really long time who they wanted to be. They want to be a famous singer, a well-known actress/actor, a renowned surgeon, a successful educator, and the list goes on and on. These people have gifts that they were able to tap into and knew without a doubt who they wanted to be and what they wanted to do.

For me on the other hand, WHO I want to be is the million dollar question. I know WHAT I want to be:

I want to be great.
I want to be successful.
I want to be happy.

But WHO I want to be? Is there a difference? Here we go again. *shrugs* But sure, I have lots of talents (some that I will admit to and some that I will not), but nothing that I can quite put my finger on as my "thing." People close to me know that I am on a spiritual journey to find my "thing" or my purpose. I am obsessed with it. I stay praying, reading, seeking the answer to my life's purpose. Sometimes this journey gets lonely and frustrating, but I do have faith that I will one day know my calling with clarity.

But for now, the short and truthful answer is that I want to be whoever God has called me to be. I am patiently waiting, yet actively seeking.

To those of you who already know the answer to this question, be oh-so-thankful. It has been one of the most trying journeys ever, but I know it will also be as equally rewarding in the end.

Who do you want to be? How long have you known?

~Stay True